http://christinabarrett39.blogspot.com/

Whose life is so cool

they don't wanna be in movies?  Oh right, we're supposed to accept everyone over not ourselves to be famous when we're very interested.

I seriously wondered about Talented Theater.

Lots of people prefer movie acting to stage acting.  I think everyone does.  So, if you major in it in college, it's still okay for film acting prep, and I don't mean a play being recorded.  I guess it seems the same, but I've never seen very realistic modern drama.

Johnny Depp Himself

He has Irish genes at least.

Another Article About a Jotted Message

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/eu_odd_russia_letter_in_a_bottle

This is an interesting article.

http://finance.yahoo.com/career-work/article/112111/happiest-careers-in-america?mod=career-worklife_balance

Symbolized Writing From 1999 Murder

http://news.yahoo.com/s/yblog_thelookout/20110329/ts_yblog_thelookout/fbi-asks-public-for-help-breaking-encrypted-notes-tied-to-1999-murder

Anne Frank's Little Sister

http://www.holocaustresearchproject.org/nazioccupation/images/The%20frank%20family.jpg

She has white blonde hair.

Nell Burton - Pre-School?

I looked my best at the end of my first year in Pre-K.  I was the youngest.  Everyone was a year older.  I don't know why.  I was 3-4 years old.  Also, I had been in gymnastics since age 1 3|4.  I started ballet in kindergarten, and it wasn't fun then.  It's not fun now, neither.  I do sing.  I want to be an actress.  I am considering majoring in voice or theater.  If I get famous before so be it.

At Least

My mom and I got my grades 2nd semester and after medically withdrawn.  They marked me down 2nd semester.  I really had some health problems or problems with the school environment construction workers after the 1st year, following Hurricane Katrina.

Singing

I didn't pass the singing audition nor piano at first.  I made it when I played piano songs I was more familiar with easily and made organ since there was someone to try out with, the teacher set up.  I should have auditioned for singing again.

So, 2nd semester 1st year they said this nice voice teacher said I was too shy for singing.  It was part of my major for music education then.  They said I couldn't major in music education, neither.  They also said not to major in piano, which I didn't want to do anyway.

Experience

Experience has taught me that I want to be a vocal performance major.  I spent so long of my life doing choir and piano and then started organ.  Now, I'm too old but know I can still stay in a college dorm.  I plan to go to UCF and live at home possibly.  I'm not sure.

They call Gaga "quarter of a century" old.

http://omg.yahoo.com/blogs/now/whats-your-real-name/63?nc

Nell Burton

I wonder if she will get a tutor.  That way she will have more free time and less stress.  She can meet kids thru different activities.

My Photobucket!

The photos disappeared in my recent Photobucket accounts!

White People

They think they are good to take the time to insult other races just because they took time to give them attention.  They'd rather be left alone. I guess I don't like having Asian nor Native American indian because they are opposing races in a way.

Plus

I can accept playing around with the word nigger, but nothing actually happened.  I should be allowed to lead my life.  This time nothing has happened.  Why did he have to go ruin it?  What a prick.

He even says

about meeting Angelina Jolie for the first time there.  He's totally mean.  That's also immature.  He probably thinks there's no consequence.  No one was talking to him about the n word.

Learning

It might be unforgivable that kids follow a ground base of rules like not physically hurting someone but learning about everything else through trial and error.  With adults who haven't grown up it's the same.

Tim's Kids

I'd been talking about Tim's kids so as not to get mad at Johnny's family.  So, maybe he thought of that, though it's not nice because it's hard to not have things come up successfully.

Johnny Depp

He acted with Angelina Jolie and went to Japan.  I wonder if he didn't go to China because I'm half Chinese Indonesian.  That's mean.  It's like calling me a nigger.  Johnny Depp is tacky.  He is from Kentucky and keeps thinking he likes being from Florida, too.

It's not a big deal, but Tim Burton did a video from Japan, too, with green lights about.

He did it because I called Tim Burton's daughter a nigger in fun.  Also, established, was the idea I have left his family alone but took it out on Tim Burton's family, posting about why they get attention from Tim Burton though they are Helena Bonham Carter's kids and not me.  Johnny is always literally insulting me.  He said, "Tim's halfway around the globe," in the Alice in Wonderland bonus features.  Tim said things in the interviews not in the bonus features, just online.  Like, he'd use the word, "mix," or something else in every other interview.

New and Old

I guess if you're always asleep you are awake for work and kids.  It seems that my generation was the shy type that lounged around.

Johnny Depp in Asia

http://www.tv.com/video/10524609/celebrity-interviews--the-insider-celebrity-gps

Not Ready

I wonder why I lost so much the age I moved to Louisiana, as though people thought I wasn't ready.  I don't know because I didn't get to do softball like I wanted.  What else was there to do at 11-12?  We moved and we could ride our bike around more.

Here's the link.

Dec 22
http://www.heavy.com/tv/tv-video/the-hour/2011/02/george-stroumboulopoulos-tonight-tim-burton/

People clapped.

When Tim Burton said, "I don't go on the internet much."

Funny

I said, "Oh no," when my dad came home to look cool.  And, now look what's happened.  Similar to my brother getting a dog.  I don't want one anymore.  It takes away from relationships.  I guess it's okay, but it's hard to get my brother to take care of him.  Now that he's in college, we walk him.  We don't want him to die.

I wish I never got the hamster.  It lived for 1 year after I went to college.  It died when I got back, and my dad buried it.  I wonder if my brother would have been valedictorian.  I shouldn't have gotten it because my mom had him take care of the hamster when I was in college.  I would take it back.  I was hoping my mom would do it since she has extra time, but at least it died after 1 year.

Maybe he likes fans in real life.

He's not come to Orlando.

Tim Burton Not on the Internet

He said, "I don't go on the internet much."  He has fans on the internet.  I wonder who he spends time with.  I wonder if things will always be this way.  It's okay if it's to spend time with his family, but it makes me jealous, just because he's famous.

Advertised Movie Pay

They listed the price for some movie jobs, and it was only in the hundreds, the mid hundreds.  For the $3800 I am going to do 12 poses for handbags.  For the 1st one I have to wear jeans and not sure what else I'm doing.

I feel I'm on my way!

I got accepted to 2 modeling jobs.  The pay is $3500 and $3800.  So, that's $7300.

Also

My dad waits for me for the gym, but he seems to think he's special for being from New Orleans at work.

I like jogging at home I told him.  This weekend my brother is home, so I'll wait maybe even to ask him to go to the grocery.  I sure hope I drive soon.  I am glad I have food stamps.  I don't feel good now.

Not Nice to Me

I don't feel Tim Burton was nice to me.  I felt shot at for looking cute and being smart.  Now I'm not and his daughter is, and he doesn't care.

Tim Burton & the Internet

He said he doesn't go on the internet much according to a video.  That's kind of mean because that's where his fans are.  He probably just is spending time with his family, despite what he's done in the past to others.  He cares more than anything for his family.  It's not fun being a fan.

My mom asked me for high school

if I wanted to go to New Orleans or an all girl school there.  I said I wanted to go where it's boys and girls.  I am happy they chose to send me to a public school, which depends on where you live.

High School Drama

There were some interesting people in drama club my first year.  So, I met that boy in drama.  It was interesting.  I saw some interesting people at the arts school in New Orleans when we watched a drama.

I had a bigger reputation before we moved.  I'm glad we moved this one time because it enabled me to quit gymnastics without having to decide so much.

New Orleans

So, the only benefit of living in Greater New Orleans and not the city is because we had a big house that was just built, and we lived next to my junior hi and high school.  We were only across the lake from the city.  We live in Orlando now, and I know Orlando is pretty big.  Our house is spacey and in a way simple.  So was the one in New Orleans.  Dade County is called Miami, now, as well, and when referred to county called Miami-Dade.  I'm from Fort Lauderdale, and there are names for all the little beaches we lived in.

I wanted to move to the city.  I was happy I went to a public high school.  My first year there there was a boy who transferred when his best friend died, but he was from New Orleans.  I had a good organ teacher when I was 16, and she was also from New Orleans.  My talented arts teachers were from New Orleans.  I don't like how only people in a certain branch of NYC or whatever are worth it.

I remember when I was 10 and my dad got home I'd say, "Oh no," because I didn't feel ready.  Also, we had to wait for him to eat, and it started to affect me, but my mom takes good care of me.  New Orleans is big.  I think it would have been nice.  I wondered why they said we were moving there then that we're not moving to the city.  They thought there would be a lot of kids moving in then, but there weren't.  The only reason I liked the schools was because the jr. high was connected to the church which I still went to in high school, and I met a boy from New Orleans.  After my first year, I started meeting the people from New Orleans.  I went to school on Saint Charles Ave. by Broadway.  Broadway is further a few blocks and hosts the politics school.  I wonder if it's hard to get a job as a teacher there.  I watched an interview of someone who wanted to be a philosophy teacher there.

So, I don't know if there's a reason we didn't move to New Orleans other than that it was better to live nearby.  There are a lot of nice people who live further from the city.  We were literally across the coast at the bridge like.  My dad worked in New Orleans.  In Florida, he had a bigger room to work in.  Here, he had a cubicle and his job advanced.  He got a good job here in Orlando now.

So, my dad used to always say his kids were perfect or whatever to make us feel good.  I often brushed over the idea of what people in the city of New Orleans were like.  I sure hope it isn't because I said, "Oh no," when he got home that we didn't move to the city.  Also, they stopped building the gym.  The school I went to was the only Catholic one open in the whole area.  It was too good of a setup.

It would be funny if I didn't say, "Oh no," when we got home because they used to get mad at me for being snooty and I didn't know where it came from but I got in trouble.  They started to feel sorry for me after awhile.  So, they don't say that about me now, but if something comes up my dad has something to say.

I'm getting this wig.

http://www.voguewigs.com/british-candy-forever-young-wig.html

I'm using it for modeling.

Olivia Newton-John

She did a big 3-part thing like looking at the past.  It seemed hard to get together, but I'm pretty sure I watched it all.  I get rid of accounts so quickly I lose track of them all.  I finally got to recording everything in a notebook tablet.

Sorry

I was sorry I stopped following Olivia Newton-John.  Suddenly, there was less of her online.  I went to the mental hospital and found a little something I liked when I got back.  Another time I was just tired and forgot to look back.  It seems she's back online.  Helena Bonham Carter was online a lot, but since the awards are over I don't see her every day.

Important to Keep up With All the Stars

I think it's important to find people to keep up with.  I go by my name on the internet and hope to meet people in real life to keep up with.

Olivia Newton-John

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1wPFYxJPzRc

This was a nice interview.  It's hard for me to know what it was because I was just watching her expressions..  *blush*  Maybe next time..

Clean New House

The only reason it was worth it not to move to New Orleans was the big house that was brand new.

Important

It's important to know what I like best.  I did like Slidell, but I was from Florida, not South Carolina.

New Orleans

I didn't even want to move there, but if we did I wanted to live in the city.  I told my parents.  My dad worked in New Orleans, so it makes me jealous.  I went to school on Saint Charles and Broadway for college.

I went on Mt. Everest twice!

at Disney

I feel good.

I just cut my toenails and shaved.

I hope

I get to be Dorothy in a next big film and little children play munchkins.  The Jitterbug is a good dance part if they do it.  It's a male and a female.

Tomorrow Disney

Animal Kingdom

Tim was never negative before.

He doesn't realize how strange he is.

Johnny Depp's Daughter

Somehow her pictures have gotten online.  I used to not look but probably was surprised when I started looking.  I think she is cool.  She reminds me of myself in certain ways.  I hope she gets to play with Tim Burton's daughter.

Dance Versus Acting

I chose acting but not theater, I mean movie acting.  Theater is good for when you're young because it's an activity to get yourself out in the open.  Plus, there are lots of neat people in it.  There are Catholic schools in Florida that have drama as an elective.  In Louisiana it was talented theater, music, and art.  Dance team and cheerleading were held both during and after school, like 7th hour.

Pre-School

Some kids only go 1|2 day.  I remember the 2nd half was just fun and I always wanted to stay longer.  It was pretending you were there all day at a cash register, but I don't remember.  I just remember always finding something to do.  My dad would come get me.

Pre-School is stupid.

I hope Nell doesn't go.  She should spend time with her mom and nanny.

Does that prove Tim Burton is not serious?

He doesn't let us do things he lets his daughter do anyway now.  He's such a cool artist, but he's obviously been mean to me.  He will know Helena and his kids, but no one else.  Why is he so famous?  He doesn't like all other people who are into acting.

Jealous

But, he never frowns at Helena spending a lot of time with her and apparently his daughter and son who is older.  Soon, his daughter will be in school, too, if she goes to Pre-K.  She has a good birthday, Dec 15, easy to remember.  2007 when Sweeney Todd came out.

Offended

He said he doesn't go online much.

Used to Like Me

I used to be liked by him.  I was comparing his family to fans.  He might not have liked that, but I was just saying.  I wasn't insulting.  It was hard to edit.

Admittance

We all try to say he's good, but he guesses the insinuation.  Why only to Helena does he say it's above what he does?  I was in school and was always praised as the class artist and scholar.  What beats out of Tim?  He's been quite mean to me online since I called his daughter a nigger.  You know, though, I was just saying in case it was him online I wondered at that point that was talking to me.  Tim seems upset about my race.

Does Tim only approve of Helena's acting?

They have kids.  Tims seems stand-off-ish.  You know how you can relate to anyone with any job?  Well not so, and he's a very attractive artist that lots of people would like and do like.  It's hard to get is approval as a person.  I felt accepted.  But, ever since I in fun defended myself saying nigger daughter, he's seen or knows and I don't feel as accepted.  He even said he doesn't go online much.  Aw.  I tried to post so much on his IMDb board.

Jew is like European Chinese.

It's the same latitude.

It's north China etc. that look white and cheesey.  South Chinese has a little tan like some white people have.

My Photobucket account stopped working.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/60957580@N06/

People enjoy when

they're not both different and precious, but I assume it makes one feel guilty for not having done the right thing.

I accidentally picked up the phone

for 800 service and this girl was talking loudly, so my ear feels a bit sensitive.  The other one is ringing loudly now.

My new favorite thing in the world!

is Nell Burton!

Parents

My dad tell me that the English don't hug, well I bet they're more proper than hands on.  When my mom held me I was always sensitive about my private, so I didn't wrap my legs around them.  I even remember when I was 1 1|2 year old.

People are so insistent on other people.

Living in central Florida sucks.

Something bad happened at the grocery. I was wearing my pajamas, and Orlando is so gay an African American lady was looking at me funny or trying to draw my attention. I was relieved to pass by her, but this tall lady with short hair seemed to rat on me, and this lady waited until my mom and I were done to charge her cart.

It's too much.

I'm not trying to be mean.  I just have had it with Johnny Depp and his cool personality.  Same with Tim Burton.  I thought it was time to learn a new language, but I don't know which one I would.  I might go do some art, now.

Johnny Depp

I picture Johnny Depp as different from Tim Burton in that his eyes are more pronounced from his face.  I got Cry Baby and his teeth always showed.  I just don't like it.  He's from Florida and he has a tan, though it's easy to tell he wasn't born there.  He seems to think this lose look is cool.  I like him, but he seems mean now.  I guess I will just keep up with these people online and try to have a life.  I need to lose more weight.  I feel more like back to normal.  I also need my hair longer!  He thinks his simplicity is right.  He is almost like Mr. Potato Head, like very losely put together as a human.

Helena Bonham Carter

really is amazing with her daughter Nell.  I hope Johnny is amazed.  I wish Johnny would stop his kind of fixation on Native American blood.  He's only getting more that way.  Also, I don't approve of his tattoos.  It's nice he got ones with his kids' names, but other than that I think it's a bit too far.  You can't remove them supposedly, but if you can I wonder if it hurts.

Helena Bonham Carter & Nell Burton

Nell really needs her mom.  I wish I could have her, but she's her mom and dad's kid.  She's so perfect, I don't ever want to see her stop.  I finally feel I've lost a lot of weight.

Johnny's Scenerio

I'm glad because I believe him having kids first inspired Tim Burton.  I think Johnny is interested in older people.  My dad and little brother each liked watching him as a pirate.

Johnny seems to believe that what he sees means he's free reign, yet I think he was racist to me though he can't be.  He's the one who's more non-white.  My face isn't molded in some way that's worse than European.  I may have some issues, which is what I'm discussing, what I devote myself as a fan.

I think it's funny how he does Native American indian sentiment, but I wish he would move on and not revel in it in that way.

I'm glad Tim Burton had kids.

He was concentrating on others, as well, after he had kids.

Vanessa Paradis doesn't believe in having kids just to make new people.  I'm just reading into what she thinks.  Johnny seems to think that other people in the U.S. who have especially European lives as in more fru fru and fancy things, even if it looks cheap and dirty, are both someone he wants attention from and people I guess like that don't beat him in a competition, yet he thinks they do.  I'm tired of Johnny Depp with his laborious contradicting views to the person you see when he's Jack Sparrow and Willy Wonka.  He mixes in his Native American indian with his idea of what German and French is.  He talks kind of slow like he's thinking more slowly just because.  I wonder kindly if it's the large amounts of Native American from both sides, maybe even 1|8, which is how much I have of Dutch maybe.

People are too squeemish about

Florida and California, like it's not very solid.  Well, I'm from Florida.

People slip and are mean to me.

They don't realize what they are doing.  I thought Tim's comment about not going online was sad.

I'm pretty settled down.

I don't know why people would want to discipline me.

They act like I did something wrong since I called Tim Burton's daughter a nigger.

Also, I added a blog called Nell Burton to another account because at the time I thought it was okay.  Then I threw away the passwords and Google hasn't responded yet about the issue.  I also made a ProBoard for her.  I lost that of course.

People are attracted

to Johnny Depp.  He has that sense of something precious from being so far removed with his Cherokee Native American indian heritage.  He meditates on something and makes sure it's worth it.  He reaches a conclusion and works hard to look so handsome.  Also, I love his wonderful children, the most important thing in life, children and parents and close relationships.

It is false

to think only the movies is what's important in life.

People always get the feeling

race is okay with Jewish.  There is no doubt there are people with mixed blood to pick on and slowly kill with how they treat others.  I even read a book on it in school, spoiler - The Scarlett Letter.

Perfect European Life

The daughter reminds me of me in some pictures I have and some of my biography.  She is like a drama girl and so cute and prissy.

Helena is considered more European than

a Middle Eastern, though today it only seems safe to have a little Jewish and the rest European.  She may be the only one.  I am so glad she found Tim and has a family with him.  I wonder if I could ever meet their daughter and son.  Since I'm a girl, I'm very interested in the daughter.  I'm interested in Helena, as well.

If you wanna marry a full-blood I suggest Middle Eastern.  I don't suggest Arab.  Arab is good, but it reminds me of Egyptian, which is the Near East.  The author of The Catcher in the Rye's dad is Jewish.  I think Helena is just very special.  She and Tim should stay together.  He will have a perfect European life.  I may get famous someday and meet the family, as well.  My family can benefit from my fame, as well.

I suggest marrying Pakistani.

Helena Bonham Carter and her daughter are so perfect.  Helena lets her daughter be more European than she seems to feel she is.  I think she is just perfect.  They are so Europeanized but have the wonderful Jew blood.  It makes them feel more precious, too, more special.  Asian is considered intelligent, and Jewish is considered white, whereas Chinese is not.  They think all Chinese don't look European, but I do.  It technically is whiter than Jewish, so I feel okay in my large half of it.

Perfect

Helena is the perfect mix of European and Asian. She is allowed to enjoy being Asian but also no problems with European. I know I don't have problems, neither. People just try to say I act old-fashioned in an unappealing way. Maybe they want to look Norwegian. Norwegians seem to just have a pretty more blank face. Russian is like that, too. Remember in Black Swan the guy was French but seemed to want to be embodying a Russian in his accent and demeanor.

This is a nice picture.

http://media.photobucket.com/image/nell+helena+/SweeneyToddForever/20081124_helena01.jpg

See, Helena is just like my mom except doesn't experience racism.  She can feel things are special without having to look European plus being accepted as European since she's mixed with a lot of European.

The difference between her and my mom are that Helena feels okay despite what racism exists.  My mom looks pretty European, but you can tell she's not.  She isn't mixed with anything else.  If I had kids with an Asian, they would look European if I could exercise the fat out of their eye area.  I think I am going to marry a white person.  Like I said, racism is made up.  There is no same for all rule.  Other people of the same race might not be as okay as another, but it's proven in that we've seen full Middle Easterners with red and blonde hair and blue eyes, which makes them look European.  We've seen people in China and India with blue eyes and Chinese with white blonde hair, like a tribe in China.  There are indian groups around Turkey I think with blonde flaxen hair.  So, you do judge by individual and have to guess if anything is too Asian.  I know I did over myself just as European and am still thinking of Asians when I think of racism.

Kids

Some people think kids are exactly the same as their parents agewise.  That never works.  They think since they are made out of their parents that that's what it means.  In a way, that hits home.  They can also think the parents are younger since parents used to be younger.  That seems common.

Mia Wasikowska

http://images.contactmusic.com/newsimages/mia_wasikowska_1133763.jpg

Music gives me something to do.

gave

Cool - make your own car

http://www.fiatusa.com/en/?bid=5103417&pid=57699781&adid=235690372&rid=40061783&channel=display

Nell has it so easy.

She doesn't do anything wrong.  She gets what she wants and has what she needs.

I feel as though Tim Burton and Johnny Depp are saying other people do things wrong, like me, but I don't.  They just created the idea because the word "nigger" isn't a part of their vocabulary, only the definition comes up all the time.

I wonder why Tim said

he doesn't go on the internet much, Tim Burton.  Too bad the fansites for him and Johnny Depp are so bad.  I like the internet.  I wish more people would post on my board.  Maybe I need another advert.

Strange Movies Happenings

At our theater, it said, "Mars Needs Mom," instead of "Mars Needs Moms."  IMDb called Johnny Depp "Johnny Deep."

Bio Site

http://2011-03-12-2.yolasite.com/

I accidentally decided to delete the last paragraph and rewrote it again smaller.  It's the one that starts, "During Katrina."  I was deleting other things I added about what I did wrong.  Aw, so sad.  I made it more brief.

Whatever the race,

you should be the best you can be!

I don't know about having dark skin, but you should search for that which you really love and don't be afraid to be seen.

i liv 4 food stamps

Yummy, yummy, yummy, there's a hole in my tummy!

So, I have to suffer

a terminating relationship with my dad, whereas Nell Burton doesn't have problems with Tim Burton.  It must be fun to be little smart and loved.  I have dreams myself, too.  I skipped 2 days of jogging, thought it was a little boring.  Maybe, I should do yoga or try again tomorrow.  I was tired and slept, too.

I like my dad.

Why can't Tim Burton be my dad, too?  Like I said, their beautiful daughter doesn't have to worry about not looking like her wonderful parents.

Tim Burton

Dec 22
http://www.heavy.com/tv/tv-video/the-hour/2011/02/george-stroumboulopoulos-tonight-tim-burton/

You can look unlike youreself.

So, why not twins?  Also twins get a different side of the body.  My sides are different, and sometimes I look like a different person.

I'm tired of the dizzy toys.

I'm an adult now, but lucky I still want to act.  I'm looking forward to the money to get clothes.  I lost a lot of fat already.  I have food stamps, too, so I'm happy.  Happiness comes before fame.  Pretty much you'll get a line of people my age and see which ones seem special.  I want more time with my family and to get famous maybe around age 30.  My hair will have grown back in.  I still am trying to get famous ASAP though and will submit a headshot.  I am wondering about price.  I want to use the money for clothes.

Jews might often be rough.

I like it in small dosages.  So many Jews overstereotype how they're European, but not Helena Bonham Carter.

That's just crazy and shouldn't be that easy.  Why don't the Chinese do that?  They are considered 2nd class culture.  I think Jew is 1st class.

I guess for Nell it all worked out.

Tim Burton isn't prejudiced against her for being Jew.  It's iffy but not really too much, I mean the percentage is small anyway.

Why didn't things work out with me?  They work out with other Chinese.

China

Chinese can be more European as it is a higher latitude.  Native American is some of it where it's colder, some of it cooler.  They apparently are in the sun a lot.  Hence, that makes it for it's hotter than the Orientals shading themselves.  Indians don't shade themselves and neither do any other Middle Easterns.  They have the people in the hot desert with only their eyes showing. Jewish is below China.  It's like Vietnam.  It's in the Africa area so is not really too Mongoloid.  I think they are Mongoloid or Asian, but it's more like African where it seems European except maybe a bit tougher.  Not all are like that, but some of them are daintier, maybe just special.  I only see Helena Bonham Carter as that, mixed Jew and European and a famous actress.  She's with Tim Burton, and I'm so glad they found each other.

Having Jewish or Native American

It seems that having it as the mother is pretty popular.  Also, then the father doesn't have it.

I need to finish developing myself.

Things are unfolding well.

Are most mixed families

bad?  They seem to have a bad rap for survival.  How can you survive with all these people bothering you?  People are always mean when I see them.  They give off messages that aren't good, so I like staying home.  Maybe I should stay home more.  I think I'm gonna have to just stay here and go online and go to the grocery when my dad takes me.  Back to before.

Why do people make things not precious?

Yet, they make them sarcastic, like maybe look stimulated a certain way or act so too etc.

I don't like being treated like I'm younger.

I never got to do things Nell does, feel certain ways.  It's time for me to mature.  It seems to everyone it's time to abandon this generation and do magic with a new one.

I am so happy

Nell is so big and tall.  She is gonna be fine and not grow up to be a hungry looking chicken.

I should have went to a public school.

They have gifted classes for especially smart kids.  Catholic schools teach dummies.  I'm serious.  My life was totally ruined at the public high school, which I liked better.

Tim Burton

Tim Burton seems to act out like he's bipolar, schizophrenic, and autistic.  Yet, he's really not.

I got diagnosed with all that.  My aunt took me to the mental hospital when I was 16.  I had to go again because I called his daughter a nigger recently.  It was interesting.  I just don't need people being phobic about a word in times like this.  Do I regret it - yes.  Would I - no.  I thought they wanted me to.  They seemed so embarrassed they acted like it wasn't popular.  I know they really wanted me to do it.  I only did it for that reason, so I guess not.  I'm not stupid.  I know it was funny.  It's funny when they act like I'm a nigger.  They don't have to say that in particular.  I don't think they're really uncomfortable with me.  I can see them each as a different person.  I'm glad the daughter is so perfectly happy.  We all get older, though.  She is still a very little person.

That's not fair

just because I said nigger all these people are mean to me.  I called Tim Burton's daughter that.  I went to the mental hospital and everyone could tell, though before they couldn't.  At least I have food stamps.

Nell Burton is allowed to be with her parents, and she seems encouraged to be with some boys I like just because of her hair color.  My build resembles the boys I like actually.  I have a feeling though they're not right for her as the age difference is bigger than my stuff.  It just makes me so jealous.

Tim Burton has been ignoring his fans online.  They're all so peppy about him, yet he dodges them sometimes.  I wouldn't do all the autographs if I were him.  I'm glad he does though.  He seems happy.  He seems to dodge everyone else and just listens to praise, directs, and has his family.  He seems to think you can't know any other people if you really wanna be a fan of him.  Yet, his daughter can do whatever she wants.

Why I Make Mistakes

When I do things once, it means it was a mistake.  No fear.  I don't do anything important as a mistake.  You can call some things in this world a mistake, but there's tight competition for jobs and high expectations.

Some African Americans

eying the rich position.  They are the voice who is heard over all for why people get mad at the middle or upper middle class but not the very rich.

Me in the Wig I'm Modeling In

I'm doing some shots with my shaved hair, too.

http://s1125.photobucket.com/albums/l581/2011-03-22-1/

Do you think you need

to have some dark side of your personality.  I do.  That's why I like both Dutch and Norwegian.

People can't assume I need tacky support

when I'm 24 almost 25.

People don't have to give up

something about their personality in order to talk.

It's funny when suddenly

things are off.  I just try to make things positive.

Tim Burton

At the Scream Awards that one year, I think 2009, Tim Burton got an award.  He was acting like he was a grandma.  I know he has young fans.  He was antsy about something to do with people's grandparents|grandmas.  In the picture I posted it looks like he let off with no antsing.  Why are things for young people in the world other than his daughter so bad?  A lot of people are mean to me in the way they act, too.

People can't get together

by being confused.

People assume the ones who have more of a minor presence are the ones who did something that someone else didn't do, when indeed they did do it.  They all wanna change the angle and make the losers, who are like cheaters in the game of life, winners.

A little hello

can do a world of good.

As long as

you find someone that fits some of the bill is good.  Most people know where to go and what to do.  I think the movies are a good way of networking.  I wonder where most movies go.  Like, it's not just what you see at the theater.  I wish we had more appealing movies come along.  That's why I hope to get famous.  I am at a good age.  Anyone can be in the movies, but it's probably nostalgic to consider.

Did some English girl make that one up?

I thought a Near Eastern girl made up the heritage comes only from blood.

It sounds like something an English girl would do eying the U.S., to invent something called racism because of the one drop rule. Before people were living in harmony, exploring the world and instilling their family values. They let it get away with themselves.

Italian get away with being a fair form of Greek.

So are all whites trash now?

Sad.  I mean none of them think things are precious like my mixed family.  No one can deny me ever because of race.  It was something that was made up.  I have lots in common that others like.  People tend to like my mom because it makes them feel foiled as important, the way they size up to her.  They think it's fun.

Have you seen people show off

like I was thinking something like Jew thinks it's both the same or a different race.  Like, the way you eat?  Like do they give their kids grown up food sooner assuming they are European.  Whereas I think in my family food was thought of as precious and not so overly assumed in how they are.  Not so thrifty I think is the word.

Money is worth more

because everyone is worth it.  There are both lots of rich and poor people like me.  I have to depend on my parents.  Our lives have changed too much.  I'm having trouble adapting to Orlando.  People are all mean here and judge you all the time.  I'm serious.

Things are getting better.

I'm learning to feel like my old self.  I feel somewhat abandoned yet happy to be alive.

I set this as my desktop.

http://i1205.photobucket.com/albums/bb421/2011-02-10-1/5.jpg

Racism is over.

I'm not racist for loving European and beautiful white things.  Black people do that.

No one fixed racial wrongs

that I saw growing up.  I know they don't exist.  I don't feel affected badly by having Native American, and I have a lot of different European heritage.  People try to say there is no problem.  That depends.

I know I'm not really loved.

Tim Burton and Johnny Depp love their own kids.  I am having a hard time finding relationships.  I don't feel allowed to date who I want to though the people I want to want to with me.

I've just grown out of it.

I shouldn't have deleted a post where I said Helena is good for Tim.  It's about thinking The Nightmare Before Christmas is your kind of thing and feeling submissive excited for Tim.

Now, people wanna think I am the one with a problem.

Why did people not want me to be accomplished yet themselves do what I did before?

If they start off molesting people, then isn't that usually considered the wrong move?  Are they just getting confused?  That means that's where it started.

This picture is reminiscent of the past.

http://i1205.photobucket.com/albums/bb421/2011-02-10-1/3.jpg

Nell

Nell doesn't have to worry much about not looking like Tim Burton because he's her dad.

People are uncomfortable because

average people are about as attractive as a person of any race.

There are good things about very tan skin and good things about very white skin.  It seems most very white people cut.

Some people

think things are important as a group.  They say nothing is too precious for them.  Of course, it's the pack mentality already set, so they set it aside as common knowledge.

Johnny Depp takes over France.

He seems to think everything is that pseudo German French thing.  I think that I see French like I see a diamond.  That's how I said it was the same as German.  It's the same as England more than most people, too.  Paris - London - New York.  What's next, Tokyo?  There's a group out in music I think with a title of Tokyo Hotel.

The truth is a lot of people don't care.

A lot of people don't care.  I forget what I was saying.

Johnny Depp versus Tim Burton's kids

Johnny Depp is very German in a way.  Irish tend to be shorter and sorta have a clumped together look, but the real deep Irish heritage is very good for ones who are more inhibited than others.

So, Johnny Depp seems to expect a certain thing, and it's German, but I think he's gone a bit too far.  I've been having fun keeping up with Tim Burton, who seems like he could have German like me.  There are different kinds of Germans and different kinds of stereotypes.

I really like Tim Burton's daughter.  She reminds me of me.  However, they have such privileges being rich and famous, never getting in trouble for wanting anything and not feeling pushed with money for their family.  They think things are very special.  I think Johnny Depp has related Native American indian with German.  My Native American indian side has French and English.  I have my dad's dad's side as mostly Irish with a little German.  Before, Johnny Depp's son was my favorite.  I wanted to marry Tim Burton's son, but he's just a little boy now.

I really hope Tim Burton's daughter gets what she wants.  I'm sure she will get along with the other kids.

Of course

black people just are really addicted to their bonds.  There is nothing wrong with them.  It's just that Europeans are supposed to stay fair generally.  Blacks don't want to give up their African bond of having black skin and that shape.

Why did the Near Easterners

say that the culture is based on racial blood when it was really based on choice?  Then, there's white people who think they can say things that bother others.  It's all the fault of the Easterners!  They must have known I existed.  I have half Chinese-Indonesian, but I prefer European as it's a 1st class culture and more developed sexually in certain ways, though it's sexy to see others interact with white people.

It almost seems I'm never ready for anything.

I can't call any place I've lived home exactly.  I had a couple good friends in northeast Florida in the nation's oldest city.  But, we moved to Greater New Orleans.

I feel too old for everything.

Even music.

I guess you have to really like music to get money from it.  My teachers didn't give me songs I liked so much.  I'm glad I stuck with it, but I wish I really let go sooner.

Do you see a reason to get mad

if you're from Florida?  I was born here, so I appreciate it.

Johnny Depp seems to be over and above concerning having kids in France and he having lived a lot in Florida.  My parents are neither from here.

I soaked in the culture when I visited my aunts and cousin after we moved to New Orleans.  It was fun seeing the beach.  We even all went to Key West together.

People Who Curse

What do you think about saying, "nigger," in public?  Also, wouldn't it be used by more sensitive English people?  I don't really like worrying about it all the time when it's not even happening.  There's nothing wrong with being called gay, but there is no reason to and it can happen to be an insult.  Just say sorry I take it back if anything happens.  If you're mad, what can you do?  Maybe you feel crappy.

Why would people call

letting lose bipolar?

The Chinese

The Chinese have been called the most hated race, and the Chinese-Indonesians were burned from their homes where my mom is from maybe by the Dutch who even still like own Indonesia I think.

People made too big a deal about blood.

The Jews were not killed for being the most hated race.  In fact, it is a favorite.

The Jews were killed because Hitler liked people with blonde hair, and many Jews don't have blonde hair.  They were separated and then killed since they were too expensive to let live.

Life couldn't be better.

I have food stamps and can go to the store for health food too and pick what I want.  I'm gonna get some cupcakes.  I think I will go to Publix this week and next week Whole Foods.  I wonder if I should make a wrap.  I think so.  I need to make more brownies.

It seems Nell gets whatever she wants.

She doesn't seem to have it in her to get in trouble.

It's neat.

It's neat Helena doesn't have to follow any stereotypes, like in America how we're supposed to be nice to Italians and African Americans, like we have to change our life for the worse.  Yet, Helena takes good care of her daughter.  I can't wait to see what she looks like next!

Tim has no limitations.

He may overly stereotype.  I am glad Helena makes the kids fine for Tim.

Race is important to me.

Why can't people just accept me as white?  I don't have much help from online nor from being overweight.

I see how being Jewish is better than Chinese.  Plus, Helena is a good person and friends with Tim.  They just have it lucky.

Used

Nell Burton and the family remember how I used to be precious in my family when I wasn't 20 yet.  I'm almost 25.

The Only People I Liked

I had a fun relationship with most people, like a world of off-beats.

Like I said, I don't feel encouraged.  I'm feeling suicidal blogging, not that I'd kill myself, but that I'd die.  It's okay.  When my hair grows back in, maybe I will get a film job and then have lots of money.  I have lots of money already from food stamps.  My mom was seeing to me getting a job with social security, which would be cute.  Usually teenagers kill themselves.  They say it's the pressure.  It sorta killed me, too.

Nell

Everything for her seems made because her parents have enough money to get a variety of clothes and spend their time in leisure with money.  I'm on a sabbatical, but it's been rough trying to get my things cleaned up after Katrina.

I guess I wish still about trying out for dance team in school, at least trying, but it's too late.  Also, moreso I wish I was in talented theater.  After my first year or something, we went to New Orleans Center for Creative Arts | Riverfront to watch the theater section do a play, but it wasn't probably all the students.

Gymnastics was special to me, but most people aren't into that kind of discipline.  I left when I got bored, which made it dangerous.  I was ahead.

Look how happy Nell was.  She has a nice body and everything and has her little bottle, well big, on the table.  She probably like me goes to the bathroom whenever she wants.  I try to go quite a lot.  The bottle is so cute!  It's not a baby bottle.  It's a kids bottle.  She probably eats out every day or has better food since she's in Europe.  They probably have a private chef.

I don't feel encouraged to get anything.

Like, I've liked boys, but for some reason I feel everyone wants them instead of me. I could be very happy. I'm ready, and most people aren't. I just have things to clean up in my room, the garage. I've cleaned up quite a bit, though. I appreciate my parents etc. I'm calling my grandma, and I think she's tired and likes to be alone. I'm not sure exactly how often she wants to talk.


I'm not used to molding myself for a boy so much as I am doing the things Helena did with her kids. Why was everything suddenly over for me and so much?

I know I got credit cards online and was mistaken that we would pay back a little at a time and I'd get a job. We had to get help or whatever you'd call it. Soon I might "file bankruptcy."

I got mad and punched 1 hole in my wall. Things seemed different, so I continued.

That little girl Nell seems to have it made. I was considering going back to college until I get hired for something in Hollywood. I was thinking of doing voice, but that's because I used to be a piano and organ major. I could also do theater, but I hear it's not the same as high school. Because of that, I think I will do the singing since I don't have theater friends right now. I'm not sure. It would be fun to chose art, too. I want to become an actress. I feel ready. I'm not sure what a good college major for fun exactly is. I'm also thinking voice because Julie Andrews is out there, and it might be a good idea in case any musical videos get made. I just want to act, though. Maybe I will do theater.

Nell Burton has a very good mom.

I know that she is a free thinker, I mean in that she can do what she wants.  Instead of reveling in fans, she revels in her new daughter and her older son.  I think like I said she's such a good mum.  I don't particularly understand much of the reason for her choice.  If I was with Tim Burton I'd be all business.  I wouldn't molest my kids I think.  She seems to have a good close relationship with them.  She has opportunity and rightly so.  I'm trying to get in Hollywood.  I like being at home with my parents, too.  I've waited awhile and feel ready to be kicked out, 24 years old.  I already started trying to get myself out there through online.  My $3500 modeling job I hope lets me network more.  Helena's kids are good.  Nell seemed pretty detailed though for some reason is starting to look like Billy yet remains perfect as is.  I'm glad the family is well.  I'm sure it'd be nice to be famous and meet them one day.  How did Helena get so smart?  My mind feels like it's frozen.  I don't think of things on things I can't do.  I sometimes get very jealous of little kids.  I hate the feeling I'm in trouble with my parents.  My dad is a bit antsy.  I know I did nothing wrong because my life is shit and it's not my fault.

Tim Burton seems to have it made.

http://i1205.photobucket.com/albums/bb421/2011-02-10-1/5.jpg

He's no forgiveness now.  Why is he ignoring all his fans, online?  It seems he spends all his time with Helena Bonham Carter, yet I think she vents at least in expression, about him, and he doesn't seem to mind.  Tim didn't live in California when he grew up.  He traveled the world all these years.  How can he think better like someone else's generation?  His movies are very racist and deep-seated Californian.

Racist can mean the way people act, like do you see a bunch of white people who shouldn't be there?  Like, why would someone get chosen just because they're white by an interesting director?  Don't we wanna solve the mysteries of racism, by getting extremely readily attractive white people?  I've seen more interesting things in my classrooms at school.  People seem to get away with having too good of a time.

I get very jealous

of California blood and parents with family in New Orleans.

I see things are about all better.

:|

Some people just don't admit it.

They make excuses and do what they claim to say not to do.  They say it's menial to forget and need assistance, but I'm not going to be the one alone in that boat.  They turn and use racism and give anything to someone else without blocking their path and situation of thinking.  Some people are so disconnected they will do anything that makes them feel more relieved.

Someone can't just be mean to me.

Someone to let it out that they just want

to kill someone else.  Try to make the best of what you have without getting jealous.

Some people prefer

to forget the way things were.

American

The argue goes both ways.  It's about being better but more non.

Petula Clark

http://www.wat.tv/video/petula-clark-vivement-dimanche-11w82_2h4rp_.html

supposedly 2008

Flattering the fender can help.

Whoever you're worried about you can  help them not do something bad by pleasing them.

Hospital

The people there were mean to me.  Someone thought he could read into my past and then exaggerated it for everyone else in his giving symbols of "what happened."  I was at the grocery section of Wal-Mart and accidentally ran into a man in front of me, and I saw this African American girl look at me insistently as though she were saying, "I just want something to happen."  Something can happen, but I suppose it's not a win win situation.

People think "it's not that bad..."

to insult someone once, not too much of their time, but it's not fair to someone getting picked at by more than one person at a time and getting a stream of people doing the same thing.  I think that's why my dad and I didn't go to the movies this weekend.

Olivia Newton-John

http://www.watchmojo.com/tv/Grab/TV Guide/4443701/

She's so nice.  I'm still sorry I stopped following her.  I'd know everything that came up.  I am actually keeping up with her.  I had to go to the mental hospital, and it was kinda slow for awhile, though I remember I forgot to look after awhile.  I had something she did like touring something for maybe half an hour though after.  I just forget since I got a little tired so many things coming up and then forgot to look again later.  I at first never looked anyone up, just posted online.  It's been like a year though and now I'm back to what I was doing, if you count when I was in the hospital.  I think it's okay now I'm keeping up.  I wonder if she disappeared again and I missed something.

Cars sound like music.

http://firewhiskeyheart.tumblr.com/post/3643542604/nell-is-such-a-litt%20le-bamf-3

I went to this site and thought it was a car.  I was a music major, so I am sensitive to rough sounds.  Very.

People get more interested when...

they know you're helping out someone who's mixed race.

My Hair - General Thought Came Up

We don't all have to blame the Jews or get mad at people for that long hair frizzy look on girls.  It's much better than the general scope together.

People deny themselves about others.

Suicide

People attempt it to show off.  The successful ones just went too far.

It's okay to feel sad.

It's bad if you don't.  It doesn't mean you need pills, like if a loved-one died.

In Slidell, after my aunt put me in a mental hospital for withdrawing, I had to take pills.  We went to a natural Chinese doctor, and I weaned off my digestion system not working.  This doctor has a history with the emperor, but he died I think from a heart attack.

At least Italians' noses

rise up at the base.  At the top and middle it's also protruding, especially in the middle.

Italians can't use people...

to make excuses for differences in their heritage.

Are you just jealous?

Are you all just jealous?

Jealous of what...the things people don't want me to do, like feel too happy about myself maybe like when I fit in or you find out how I've been treated.

The Tan

Without the body, the tan of an African American girl could look like a tanned beach babe.  Right now I'm wondering if girls are more gold.

I have seen black people look white.

And vise versa, but really this one movie I watched a black girl's fingers, I think Slumdog Millionaire, and for some reason they looked like an obese white lady.  See an arm and not be able to tell if it's a redhead who likes to go fishing.  Red is the recessive trait.  Or a fro blonde.  I don't know why people with red-hair are overly red.

I still don't know

why blacks have a fro

So, white people buffer off their skin...

as the only reason for not being black, which includes the grayish tan Africans.  Actually, they are okay, but my skin was a bit lighter when I took control.  I think it is because you think white Africans exist when they don't have white all over and a pink flush in the sun.

Picky Older People

I used to get sad for them.

I can see people in a different way.

People pose so pretty for non-European heritages.  In reality with other white people they seem suicidal.  And, suicidal people are attractive.  Or, maybe I'm jealous of their kind of New Orleans area heritage.

Like, if someone is told they don't seem happy enough as a person, they see someone they can say is not European for fun, and then they pose like they are some classic image to meditate on.  It does seem attractive then.  But, when it's a close call it could be upsetting.

Black people are too gray.

I wonder what happened.  Asian can get rid of the tan.

Don't wait for me Tim!

Tim Burton, do it now, The Wizard of Oz, before someone else tries to do it, first.  Do another musical!  I'm majoring in singing.

No one is supposed to be jealous of me.

Why bother insulting someone all the time?

There's no saying I have to like something...

about the Chinese who are muddled as to what they think meeting Europeans.  It's already stated either it's more European or it's northeast or Mong Chinese.  I'm serious.  And Jews migrated south of their latitude.

I have Native American, which is a sort of commodity.  I hope I have Jewish.

What People Deserve

How does someone deserve to be the daughter of Tim Burton yet can't seem to get along with people who have a job calling all day?

Totally losing interest

So much of my time has gone by.  I just have to get thin and get some headshots and try to get an acting job when my hair grows an inch or two.

People are fed up and will do everything...

sigh and ignore people.

I know because my brother actually wanted his own dog to take care of.  I started doing badly in school.  That's why people have babies.  Ask and they'll say yes.  Whatever reason my parents had me doesn't matter because I still follow all the rules in thinking and am my own person in existence, not my parents.  I know I've seen I have less in common in demeanor.

Isn't making someone feel good

about age?

I was thinking if it's so important for Tim Burton and Helena Bonham Carter's baby to be happy, but not me also because they're older and jealous in turn, then isn't that just about age?  Why not treat me better like I'm young?

It always goes it's more important for young people, but it also works in my case being older than relatives.  Why do people like Tim Burton and Helena Bonham Carter use their kids seemingly to communicate what they think?  It's not working!

I mean yea, the baby is getting older and seems to have developed a full happy life at the age of 3 - 3 1|2.  I've changed a lot, but each time different things made me happy.  I think it's the same problem.  Someone could be mean to me in a way while saying I'm Asian, and I grew up in an environment where those things are not public issues.

Everyone should marry...

because the baby needs to be with the husband.

I don't like the way...

all of a sudden I am considered not tough.  Like, a white person says they're not good at something, anyway.  But, they still seem smart in what they do, and whatever it is it utilizes a complex disposition.  That's like using me.

Prison is the same thing as the Holocaust.

Prison is scary because if you killed someone by accident you are sentenced to death.

Sentencing people to death is the same thing as a the Holocaust, only with criminals.

Nell Burton

She is so smart and has such a smart mom, and her parents are both in Hollywood, so she should be an actress!

http://i1205.photobucket.com/albums/bb421/2011-02-10-1/normal_hbc-2011-beingwelcomedhome-06.jpg

Look at this girl!  How does anyone stand with their arms clamped in but facing outwards and stick out out their butt and crossing their legs so cool!  It must be something a lot of people do yet don't realize it.

Who would attack you racially?

If not just giving the subtle hints.

You can't be mad at someone's race.

How do people connect...

with different races' features?

It makes me more comfortable to see...

Tim Burton and Johnny Depp famous.

Theater is for young people.

I don't want to grow up and memorize Shakespeare.  We did snippets in Talented Theater.  I wish I was in Talented Theater the whole time.  What makes me uncomfortable is I remember meeting 2 people I liked in all of Slidell.  The rest were different, you know fat or old or the outside|action type only.  There was this neat boy whose best friend died, but he was from New Orleans the city.  I remember awhile after he left I saw a theater performance in New Orleans Center for Creative Arts | Riverfront.  It seems more like the people I met growing up in Florida but not going to school in the major cities, like Miami and Tampa.  I liked my organ teacher, too.  She came and did music at the church I went to that she used to go to.  She always had her hair so white and smooth brushed back with bangs and some angle.  The boy was in drama with me and had this light brown hair that like spiked back or something.  Other than Slidell, I haven't met anyone that interesting that much in person.  I saw a girl when I was in the Cleveland area with like glittery hair that was platinum with glittery gold and red.  It was smooth and thick.  I had a drama teacher and the talented music teacher from New Orleans.  I really liked the drama teacher.  She had black hair and brown eyes and it was kinda wavy, and she was an average build.  She seems like she could be Russian, though her last name is French.  I had fun music teachers who I knew had French when I lived in the nation's oldest city, Saint Augustine in northeast Florida under Jacksonville.  I had a lot of fun people, though.

Clear Whites on the Nails

There was a girl with an Italian last name with smooth black hair, blue eyes, and freckles.  I remember her nails were see-through on the part that usually is grown in white.  Then when the daughter of the music people I mentioned just now sang in front of the classroom for a master class, meaning people getting together to present what they've learned with a teacher and audience of classmates.  I could see that her nails were longer but see through.

It's not something you'd expect.

Well, I myself am from Florida, and my dad is from Pennsylvania and New York state.

Theater was a way to get attention.

I remember two people moved to New Orleans.  The lady sang in Germany for 20 years but is from Minnesota.  I only know her husband did music at Harvard and sang with this lady.  They had a daughter 4 years older than me.

I was just wishing I studied music there because it could prepare me to be Julie Andrews.  This is a good time to be more decided on a focus.

You can't sort right and wrong like a machine.

I just heard something on the TV that made me think of something I never thought before.  People really cause their own problems, so that's a sick joke.

Relying on Beach Personality

Everyone thinks

they're the ones that did it.

Girls

still have to follow rules.

But, I don't know if that's where they're from still.

Or, maybe they do it too much.

People I like prefer me.

I don't like people pretending I am nothing.  I can see I am something.

Well, Orlando is a little weird, but what place isn't?

I may not seem seductive enough, but most people aren't really.

For some people it's not enough.

Black people shouldn't pick a fight...

...with me in the frist place.

I've seen people...

...struggling meeting our family where they just want my dad and then still try to make themselves special with my mom.

You can't fight with people...

...who dedicate their life to being a certain way, just for something like your hair color.

Race

I think time is up.

Colors and Ages

People think that being a racist white person is okay.  Even if they have darker skin, they think they're whiter if they aren't so, you know nothing special racially but seems to be in on anything.  Like, they think all Europeans think like blondes, and their issue issue is okay though they think people who look European who aren't don't have the issue.  I think they like light hybrids of Middle and Far Easterners.  They seem to have something against Americans.  They think everything is along the issue of though they are mean they get to think they are whiter than someone who even just has Chinese with European mixed, with European culture, rearranged to fit all the time.  I'm the only person like this I met.  They think if they have dark ratty hair that they're the fancy one and are considered good for being humble, but not so if you're not European, which is an understatement.  With age of course they all align themselves to when they were younger but can't look now, which is sad.

You carry traits from each ethnicity.

Each ethnicity contributes to how you look.  It can trace back all the way to the beginning!  I know it comes in large doses, people from the 1800s.

Mixed People

They don't have just the less white side.  It's literally both and how much they like which culture particularly in which way.  They should have things they like as both.

Wars for the Typical

For the typical image people start wars.  It's not because of someone good-looking who's mixed race.  It's what you see mostly.

People change what they think...

...when it comes to being famous for acting or singing.  Things switch.

People and Their Moms

Why is it right for people to feel fed up with their mom when others don't.  Something like that.

It's obvious.

People in public don't create problems, but someone you know might have important issues with the general public issues.

Extra Stereotype as a European

I certainly do extra things in my life.

How can the issue be

to be a European stereotype when in the first place it's just racism and we're all people in the end?  I mean the way people in general don't start out perfect.  They are born innocent and collect guilt.

I can have a boy

because I miss my brother as a baby.

Nell Burton

I love this picture of the family!

http://i1205.photobucket.com/albums/bb421/2011-02-10-1/normal_hbc-2011-beingwelcomedhome-06.jpg

When people act a certain way

they are saying all the things they get away with, like oh my momma says this or my momma does that, so I don't have to work on my presentation.  It's the fact you're racist.  There are lots of people in the U.S. who are Irish and indian.

I don't even know how...

...to find auditions to sing in a movie.

When I get better, I can get an agent.

Everyone has brushed away an Asian.

Olivia Newton-John

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XEnWEosSuso

She looks so nice signing the autographs.  I wonder why she takes the time to do it and if the people are surprised to see her.  It's funny how everyone has something ready for her to sign.

Jogging

then working on something with my money

Going to See a Psychiatrist and Movie

I'll probably be back around evening.

Do we consist of what we do or something else?

I don't cease to amaze myself.

I should become an actress ASAP.  I thought I should wait, but I'm myself and that's what matters, not how long my break is.  My break has allowed me to get taller, but that's not an important thing in my life that matters because I can grow a little whenever I want.  I do like to eat a lot but work out a lot.

Blacks are more different in America.

Not all Africans have black skin.  A lot of them have brown skin.

http://abd.disney.go.com/abd/en_US/destination?name=SouthAfricaLandingPage

The last picture here shows they are more "like us" outside of the U.S., more European, like they could lose their tan and be somebody who's not considered black.

People tend to get upset when I think like oh we should be nicer to people.  I don't know why blacks here are so blatant and upset deciding between liking being black or wanting to be something else. 

Walking the Dog and Jogging

Going to the Gym

Jogging

Just Woke Up - Jogging

IMDb: Johnny Depp

I know why Johnny Depp is so very attracted to Vanessa Paradis.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7VYDNDBYciw

I was rewatching this YouTube of me singing "Reflection" by Christina Aguilera from Mulan and I noticed me actually being born in southeast Florida that I couldn't move freely in the way someone like Johnny Depp not originally being from Florida moves. Like, I was stiff, but I have very extra intricate movements that you can trace now. It's like you know what's coming but then again you don't. Johnny Depp is famous for being from Miramar, near Fort Lauderdale and Miami. Florida is a very detail-oriented state. Vanessa Paradis embodies that orientation. She is very delicate. She is very detailed and careful with things. I can already tell seeing what I do of his kids and her performances and her talking. I feel that she's like family because I lived in Greater New Orleans which is a very French area, Cajun and Creole. So, I can connect more to her than Johnny in 2 ways all my life.

Earlier

I was accepted as a model for $3,000.  I'm going to model clothes in some jeans.  I look a lot skinnier now.  I've been working out every day.  I jog an hour each night and want to be awake to do it during the day, as well.

I was given an offer when I was 21 to go on a program to model in Miami.  I'd be trained and conditioned and be told to seek out work as an actress eventually.  I'm 24 now.  I didn't do it because I didn't look like the picture I have where it's pink outline and white in the middle.

Jogging for an Hour

Then probably a shower.  After that some talking recording.

I jogged for an hour tonight.

I have a new MySpace.

Helena Bonham Carter

http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=video&cd=18&ved=0CF4QtwIwBzgK&url=http%3A%2F%2Fdavid.telemundo.nbcuxd.com%2Fentretenimiento%2FCrossover%2Fvideo_player%3Fuuid%3Df2572c39-5da6-45bf-bd93-d4abae4c17f0&rct=j&q=helena%20bonham%20carter&ei=tpl9TeHBAcOatwfE26G6BQ&usg=AFQjCNEUiQEH0gs6WtbkyUVRl-4mRvgCGw&sig2=niH7WddFKBmV-XIy43ZpZg&cad=rja

Olivia Newton-John

So, she has a lot of neat things going out with the breast cancer awareness and most importantly survival.