As long as

you find someone that fits some of the bill is good.  Most people know where to go and what to do.  I think the movies are a good way of networking.  I wonder where most movies go.  Like, it's not just what you see at the theater.  I wish we had more appealing movies come along.  That's why I hope to get famous.  I am at a good age.  Anyone can be in the movies, but it's probably nostalgic to consider.

Did some English girl make that one up?

I thought a Near Eastern girl made up the heritage comes only from blood.

It sounds like something an English girl would do eying the U.S., to invent something called racism because of the one drop rule. Before people were living in harmony, exploring the world and instilling their family values. They let it get away with themselves.

Italian get away with being a fair form of Greek.

So are all whites trash now?

Sad.  I mean none of them think things are precious like my mixed family.  No one can deny me ever because of race.  It was something that was made up.  I have lots in common that others like.  People tend to like my mom because it makes them feel foiled as important, the way they size up to her.  They think it's fun.

Have you seen people show off

like I was thinking something like Jew thinks it's both the same or a different race.  Like, the way you eat?  Like do they give their kids grown up food sooner assuming they are European.  Whereas I think in my family food was thought of as precious and not so overly assumed in how they are.  Not so thrifty I think is the word.

Money is worth more

because everyone is worth it.  There are both lots of rich and poor people like me.  I have to depend on my parents.  Our lives have changed too much.  I'm having trouble adapting to Orlando.  People are all mean here and judge you all the time.  I'm serious.

Things are getting better.

I'm learning to feel like my old self.  I feel somewhat abandoned yet happy to be alive.

I set this as my desktop.

http://i1205.photobucket.com/albums/bb421/2011-02-10-1/5.jpg

Racism is over.

I'm not racist for loving European and beautiful white things.  Black people do that.

No one fixed racial wrongs

that I saw growing up.  I know they don't exist.  I don't feel affected badly by having Native American, and I have a lot of different European heritage.  People try to say there is no problem.  That depends.

I know I'm not really loved.

Tim Burton and Johnny Depp love their own kids.  I am having a hard time finding relationships.  I don't feel allowed to date who I want to though the people I want to want to with me.

I've just grown out of it.

I shouldn't have deleted a post where I said Helena is good for Tim.  It's about thinking The Nightmare Before Christmas is your kind of thing and feeling submissive excited for Tim.

Now, people wanna think I am the one with a problem.

Why did people not want me to be accomplished yet themselves do what I did before?

If they start off molesting people, then isn't that usually considered the wrong move?  Are they just getting confused?  That means that's where it started.

This picture is reminiscent of the past.

http://i1205.photobucket.com/albums/bb421/2011-02-10-1/3.jpg

Nell

Nell doesn't have to worry much about not looking like Tim Burton because he's her dad.

People are uncomfortable because

average people are about as attractive as a person of any race.

There are good things about very tan skin and good things about very white skin.  It seems most very white people cut.

Some people

think things are important as a group.  They say nothing is too precious for them.  Of course, it's the pack mentality already set, so they set it aside as common knowledge.

Johnny Depp takes over France.

He seems to think everything is that pseudo German French thing.  I think that I see French like I see a diamond.  That's how I said it was the same as German.  It's the same as England more than most people, too.  Paris - London - New York.  What's next, Tokyo?  There's a group out in music I think with a title of Tokyo Hotel.

The truth is a lot of people don't care.

A lot of people don't care.  I forget what I was saying.

Johnny Depp versus Tim Burton's kids

Johnny Depp is very German in a way.  Irish tend to be shorter and sorta have a clumped together look, but the real deep Irish heritage is very good for ones who are more inhibited than others.

So, Johnny Depp seems to expect a certain thing, and it's German, but I think he's gone a bit too far.  I've been having fun keeping up with Tim Burton, who seems like he could have German like me.  There are different kinds of Germans and different kinds of stereotypes.

I really like Tim Burton's daughter.  She reminds me of me.  However, they have such privileges being rich and famous, never getting in trouble for wanting anything and not feeling pushed with money for their family.  They think things are very special.  I think Johnny Depp has related Native American indian with German.  My Native American indian side has French and English.  I have my dad's dad's side as mostly Irish with a little German.  Before, Johnny Depp's son was my favorite.  I wanted to marry Tim Burton's son, but he's just a little boy now.

I really hope Tim Burton's daughter gets what she wants.  I'm sure she will get along with the other kids.

Of course

black people just are really addicted to their bonds.  There is nothing wrong with them.  It's just that Europeans are supposed to stay fair generally.  Blacks don't want to give up their African bond of having black skin and that shape.

Why did the Near Easterners

say that the culture is based on racial blood when it was really based on choice?  Then, there's white people who think they can say things that bother others.  It's all the fault of the Easterners!  They must have known I existed.  I have half Chinese-Indonesian, but I prefer European as it's a 1st class culture and more developed sexually in certain ways, though it's sexy to see others interact with white people.

It almost seems I'm never ready for anything.

I can't call any place I've lived home exactly.  I had a couple good friends in northeast Florida in the nation's oldest city.  But, we moved to Greater New Orleans.

I feel too old for everything.

Even music.

I guess you have to really like music to get money from it.  My teachers didn't give me songs I liked so much.  I'm glad I stuck with it, but I wish I really let go sooner.

Do you see a reason to get mad

if you're from Florida?  I was born here, so I appreciate it.

Johnny Depp seems to be over and above concerning having kids in France and he having lived a lot in Florida.  My parents are neither from here.

I soaked in the culture when I visited my aunts and cousin after we moved to New Orleans.  It was fun seeing the beach.  We even all went to Key West together.

People Who Curse

What do you think about saying, "nigger," in public?  Also, wouldn't it be used by more sensitive English people?  I don't really like worrying about it all the time when it's not even happening.  There's nothing wrong with being called gay, but there is no reason to and it can happen to be an insult.  Just say sorry I take it back if anything happens.  If you're mad, what can you do?  Maybe you feel crappy.

Why would people call

letting lose bipolar?

The Chinese

The Chinese have been called the most hated race, and the Chinese-Indonesians were burned from their homes where my mom is from maybe by the Dutch who even still like own Indonesia I think.

People made too big a deal about blood.

The Jews were not killed for being the most hated race.  In fact, it is a favorite.

The Jews were killed because Hitler liked people with blonde hair, and many Jews don't have blonde hair.  They were separated and then killed since they were too expensive to let live.

Life couldn't be better.

I have food stamps and can go to the store for health food too and pick what I want.  I'm gonna get some cupcakes.  I think I will go to Publix this week and next week Whole Foods.  I wonder if I should make a wrap.  I think so.  I need to make more brownies.

It seems Nell gets whatever she wants.

She doesn't seem to have it in her to get in trouble.

It's neat.

It's neat Helena doesn't have to follow any stereotypes, like in America how we're supposed to be nice to Italians and African Americans, like we have to change our life for the worse.  Yet, Helena takes good care of her daughter.  I can't wait to see what she looks like next!

Tim has no limitations.

He may overly stereotype.  I am glad Helena makes the kids fine for Tim.

Race is important to me.

Why can't people just accept me as white?  I don't have much help from online nor from being overweight.

I see how being Jewish is better than Chinese.  Plus, Helena is a good person and friends with Tim.  They just have it lucky.

Used

Nell Burton and the family remember how I used to be precious in my family when I wasn't 20 yet.  I'm almost 25.

The Only People I Liked

I had a fun relationship with most people, like a world of off-beats.

Like I said, I don't feel encouraged.  I'm feeling suicidal blogging, not that I'd kill myself, but that I'd die.  It's okay.  When my hair grows back in, maybe I will get a film job and then have lots of money.  I have lots of money already from food stamps.  My mom was seeing to me getting a job with social security, which would be cute.  Usually teenagers kill themselves.  They say it's the pressure.  It sorta killed me, too.

Nell

Everything for her seems made because her parents have enough money to get a variety of clothes and spend their time in leisure with money.  I'm on a sabbatical, but it's been rough trying to get my things cleaned up after Katrina.

I guess I wish still about trying out for dance team in school, at least trying, but it's too late.  Also, moreso I wish I was in talented theater.  After my first year or something, we went to New Orleans Center for Creative Arts | Riverfront to watch the theater section do a play, but it wasn't probably all the students.

Gymnastics was special to me, but most people aren't into that kind of discipline.  I left when I got bored, which made it dangerous.  I was ahead.

Look how happy Nell was.  She has a nice body and everything and has her little bottle, well big, on the table.  She probably like me goes to the bathroom whenever she wants.  I try to go quite a lot.  The bottle is so cute!  It's not a baby bottle.  It's a kids bottle.  She probably eats out every day or has better food since she's in Europe.  They probably have a private chef.

I don't feel encouraged to get anything.

Like, I've liked boys, but for some reason I feel everyone wants them instead of me. I could be very happy. I'm ready, and most people aren't. I just have things to clean up in my room, the garage. I've cleaned up quite a bit, though. I appreciate my parents etc. I'm calling my grandma, and I think she's tired and likes to be alone. I'm not sure exactly how often she wants to talk.


I'm not used to molding myself for a boy so much as I am doing the things Helena did with her kids. Why was everything suddenly over for me and so much?

I know I got credit cards online and was mistaken that we would pay back a little at a time and I'd get a job. We had to get help or whatever you'd call it. Soon I might "file bankruptcy."

I got mad and punched 1 hole in my wall. Things seemed different, so I continued.

That little girl Nell seems to have it made. I was considering going back to college until I get hired for something in Hollywood. I was thinking of doing voice, but that's because I used to be a piano and organ major. I could also do theater, but I hear it's not the same as high school. Because of that, I think I will do the singing since I don't have theater friends right now. I'm not sure. It would be fun to chose art, too. I want to become an actress. I feel ready. I'm not sure what a good college major for fun exactly is. I'm also thinking voice because Julie Andrews is out there, and it might be a good idea in case any musical videos get made. I just want to act, though. Maybe I will do theater.

Nell Burton has a very good mom.

I know that she is a free thinker, I mean in that she can do what she wants.  Instead of reveling in fans, she revels in her new daughter and her older son.  I think like I said she's such a good mum.  I don't particularly understand much of the reason for her choice.  If I was with Tim Burton I'd be all business.  I wouldn't molest my kids I think.  She seems to have a good close relationship with them.  She has opportunity and rightly so.  I'm trying to get in Hollywood.  I like being at home with my parents, too.  I've waited awhile and feel ready to be kicked out, 24 years old.  I already started trying to get myself out there through online.  My $3500 modeling job I hope lets me network more.  Helena's kids are good.  Nell seemed pretty detailed though for some reason is starting to look like Billy yet remains perfect as is.  I'm glad the family is well.  I'm sure it'd be nice to be famous and meet them one day.  How did Helena get so smart?  My mind feels like it's frozen.  I don't think of things on things I can't do.  I sometimes get very jealous of little kids.  I hate the feeling I'm in trouble with my parents.  My dad is a bit antsy.  I know I did nothing wrong because my life is shit and it's not my fault.

Tim Burton seems to have it made.

http://i1205.photobucket.com/albums/bb421/2011-02-10-1/5.jpg

He's no forgiveness now.  Why is he ignoring all his fans, online?  It seems he spends all his time with Helena Bonham Carter, yet I think she vents at least in expression, about him, and he doesn't seem to mind.  Tim didn't live in California when he grew up.  He traveled the world all these years.  How can he think better like someone else's generation?  His movies are very racist and deep-seated Californian.

Racist can mean the way people act, like do you see a bunch of white people who shouldn't be there?  Like, why would someone get chosen just because they're white by an interesting director?  Don't we wanna solve the mysteries of racism, by getting extremely readily attractive white people?  I've seen more interesting things in my classrooms at school.  People seem to get away with having too good of a time.

I get very jealous

of California blood and parents with family in New Orleans.

I see things are about all better.

:|

Some people just don't admit it.

They make excuses and do what they claim to say not to do.  They say it's menial to forget and need assistance, but I'm not going to be the one alone in that boat.  They turn and use racism and give anything to someone else without blocking their path and situation of thinking.  Some people are so disconnected they will do anything that makes them feel more relieved.

Someone can't just be mean to me.

Someone to let it out that they just want

to kill someone else.  Try to make the best of what you have without getting jealous.

Some people prefer

to forget the way things were.

American

The argue goes both ways.  It's about being better but more non.

Petula Clark

http://www.wat.tv/video/petula-clark-vivement-dimanche-11w82_2h4rp_.html

supposedly 2008

Flattering the fender can help.

Whoever you're worried about you can  help them not do something bad by pleasing them.

Hospital

The people there were mean to me.  Someone thought he could read into my past and then exaggerated it for everyone else in his giving symbols of "what happened."  I was at the grocery section of Wal-Mart and accidentally ran into a man in front of me, and I saw this African American girl look at me insistently as though she were saying, "I just want something to happen."  Something can happen, but I suppose it's not a win win situation.

People think "it's not that bad..."

to insult someone once, not too much of their time, but it's not fair to someone getting picked at by more than one person at a time and getting a stream of people doing the same thing.  I think that's why my dad and I didn't go to the movies this weekend.

Olivia Newton-John

http://www.watchmojo.com/tv/Grab/TV Guide/4443701/

She's so nice.  I'm still sorry I stopped following her.  I'd know everything that came up.  I am actually keeping up with her.  I had to go to the mental hospital, and it was kinda slow for awhile, though I remember I forgot to look after awhile.  I had something she did like touring something for maybe half an hour though after.  I just forget since I got a little tired so many things coming up and then forgot to look again later.  I at first never looked anyone up, just posted online.  It's been like a year though and now I'm back to what I was doing, if you count when I was in the hospital.  I think it's okay now I'm keeping up.  I wonder if she disappeared again and I missed something.

Cars sound like music.

http://firewhiskeyheart.tumblr.com/post/3643542604/nell-is-such-a-litt%20le-bamf-3

I went to this site and thought it was a car.  I was a music major, so I am sensitive to rough sounds.  Very.

People get more interested when...

they know you're helping out someone who's mixed race.

My Hair - General Thought Came Up

We don't all have to blame the Jews or get mad at people for that long hair frizzy look on girls.  It's much better than the general scope together.

People deny themselves about others.

Suicide

People attempt it to show off.  The successful ones just went too far.

It's okay to feel sad.

It's bad if you don't.  It doesn't mean you need pills, like if a loved-one died.

In Slidell, after my aunt put me in a mental hospital for withdrawing, I had to take pills.  We went to a natural Chinese doctor, and I weaned off my digestion system not working.  This doctor has a history with the emperor, but he died I think from a heart attack.

At least Italians' noses

rise up at the base.  At the top and middle it's also protruding, especially in the middle.

Italians can't use people...

to make excuses for differences in their heritage.

Are you just jealous?

Are you all just jealous?

Jealous of what...the things people don't want me to do, like feel too happy about myself maybe like when I fit in or you find out how I've been treated.

The Tan

Without the body, the tan of an African American girl could look like a tanned beach babe.  Right now I'm wondering if girls are more gold.

I have seen black people look white.

And vise versa, but really this one movie I watched a black girl's fingers, I think Slumdog Millionaire, and for some reason they looked like an obese white lady.  See an arm and not be able to tell if it's a redhead who likes to go fishing.  Red is the recessive trait.  Or a fro blonde.  I don't know why people with red-hair are overly red.

I still don't know

why blacks have a fro

So, white people buffer off their skin...

as the only reason for not being black, which includes the grayish tan Africans.  Actually, they are okay, but my skin was a bit lighter when I took control.  I think it is because you think white Africans exist when they don't have white all over and a pink flush in the sun.

Picky Older People

I used to get sad for them.

I can see people in a different way.

People pose so pretty for non-European heritages.  In reality with other white people they seem suicidal.  And, suicidal people are attractive.  Or, maybe I'm jealous of their kind of New Orleans area heritage.

Like, if someone is told they don't seem happy enough as a person, they see someone they can say is not European for fun, and then they pose like they are some classic image to meditate on.  It does seem attractive then.  But, when it's a close call it could be upsetting.

Black people are too gray.

I wonder what happened.  Asian can get rid of the tan.

Don't wait for me Tim!

Tim Burton, do it now, The Wizard of Oz, before someone else tries to do it, first.  Do another musical!  I'm majoring in singing.

No one is supposed to be jealous of me.

Why bother insulting someone all the time?

There's no saying I have to like something...

about the Chinese who are muddled as to what they think meeting Europeans.  It's already stated either it's more European or it's northeast or Mong Chinese.  I'm serious.  And Jews migrated south of their latitude.

I have Native American, which is a sort of commodity.  I hope I have Jewish.

What People Deserve

How does someone deserve to be the daughter of Tim Burton yet can't seem to get along with people who have a job calling all day?

Totally losing interest

So much of my time has gone by.  I just have to get thin and get some headshots and try to get an acting job when my hair grows an inch or two.

People are fed up and will do everything...

sigh and ignore people.

I know because my brother actually wanted his own dog to take care of.  I started doing badly in school.  That's why people have babies.  Ask and they'll say yes.  Whatever reason my parents had me doesn't matter because I still follow all the rules in thinking and am my own person in existence, not my parents.  I know I've seen I have less in common in demeanor.

Isn't making someone feel good

about age?

I was thinking if it's so important for Tim Burton and Helena Bonham Carter's baby to be happy, but not me also because they're older and jealous in turn, then isn't that just about age?  Why not treat me better like I'm young?

It always goes it's more important for young people, but it also works in my case being older than relatives.  Why do people like Tim Burton and Helena Bonham Carter use their kids seemingly to communicate what they think?  It's not working!

I mean yea, the baby is getting older and seems to have developed a full happy life at the age of 3 - 3 1|2.  I've changed a lot, but each time different things made me happy.  I think it's the same problem.  Someone could be mean to me in a way while saying I'm Asian, and I grew up in an environment where those things are not public issues.

Everyone should marry...

because the baby needs to be with the husband.

I don't like the way...

all of a sudden I am considered not tough.  Like, a white person says they're not good at something, anyway.  But, they still seem smart in what they do, and whatever it is it utilizes a complex disposition.  That's like using me.

Prison is the same thing as the Holocaust.

Prison is scary because if you killed someone by accident you are sentenced to death.

Sentencing people to death is the same thing as a the Holocaust, only with criminals.

Nell Burton

She is so smart and has such a smart mom, and her parents are both in Hollywood, so she should be an actress!

http://i1205.photobucket.com/albums/bb421/2011-02-10-1/normal_hbc-2011-beingwelcomedhome-06.jpg

Look at this girl!  How does anyone stand with their arms clamped in but facing outwards and stick out out their butt and crossing their legs so cool!  It must be something a lot of people do yet don't realize it.

Who would attack you racially?

If not just giving the subtle hints.

You can't be mad at someone's race.

How do people connect...

with different races' features?

It makes me more comfortable to see...

Tim Burton and Johnny Depp famous.

Theater is for young people.

I don't want to grow up and memorize Shakespeare.  We did snippets in Talented Theater.  I wish I was in Talented Theater the whole time.  What makes me uncomfortable is I remember meeting 2 people I liked in all of Slidell.  The rest were different, you know fat or old or the outside|action type only.  There was this neat boy whose best friend died, but he was from New Orleans the city.  I remember awhile after he left I saw a theater performance in New Orleans Center for Creative Arts | Riverfront.  It seems more like the people I met growing up in Florida but not going to school in the major cities, like Miami and Tampa.  I liked my organ teacher, too.  She came and did music at the church I went to that she used to go to.  She always had her hair so white and smooth brushed back with bangs and some angle.  The boy was in drama with me and had this light brown hair that like spiked back or something.  Other than Slidell, I haven't met anyone that interesting that much in person.  I saw a girl when I was in the Cleveland area with like glittery hair that was platinum with glittery gold and red.  It was smooth and thick.  I had a drama teacher and the talented music teacher from New Orleans.  I really liked the drama teacher.  She had black hair and brown eyes and it was kinda wavy, and she was an average build.  She seems like she could be Russian, though her last name is French.  I had fun music teachers who I knew had French when I lived in the nation's oldest city, Saint Augustine in northeast Florida under Jacksonville.  I had a lot of fun people, though.

Clear Whites on the Nails

There was a girl with an Italian last name with smooth black hair, blue eyes, and freckles.  I remember her nails were see-through on the part that usually is grown in white.  Then when the daughter of the music people I mentioned just now sang in front of the classroom for a master class, meaning people getting together to present what they've learned with a teacher and audience of classmates.  I could see that her nails were longer but see through.

It's not something you'd expect.

Well, I myself am from Florida, and my dad is from Pennsylvania and New York state.

Theater was a way to get attention.

I remember two people moved to New Orleans.  The lady sang in Germany for 20 years but is from Minnesota.  I only know her husband did music at Harvard and sang with this lady.  They had a daughter 4 years older than me.

I was just wishing I studied music there because it could prepare me to be Julie Andrews.  This is a good time to be more decided on a focus.

You can't sort right and wrong like a machine.

I just heard something on the TV that made me think of something I never thought before.  People really cause their own problems, so that's a sick joke.

Relying on Beach Personality

Everyone thinks

they're the ones that did it.

Girls

still have to follow rules.

But, I don't know if that's where they're from still.

Or, maybe they do it too much.

People I like prefer me.

I don't like people pretending I am nothing.  I can see I am something.

Well, Orlando is a little weird, but what place isn't?

I may not seem seductive enough, but most people aren't really.

For some people it's not enough.

Black people shouldn't pick a fight...

...with me in the frist place.

I've seen people...

...struggling meeting our family where they just want my dad and then still try to make themselves special with my mom.

You can't fight with people...

...who dedicate their life to being a certain way, just for something like your hair color.

Race

I think time is up.

Colors and Ages

People think that being a racist white person is okay.  Even if they have darker skin, they think they're whiter if they aren't so, you know nothing special racially but seems to be in on anything.  Like, they think all Europeans think like blondes, and their issue issue is okay though they think people who look European who aren't don't have the issue.  I think they like light hybrids of Middle and Far Easterners.  They seem to have something against Americans.  They think everything is along the issue of though they are mean they get to think they are whiter than someone who even just has Chinese with European mixed, with European culture, rearranged to fit all the time.  I'm the only person like this I met.  They think if they have dark ratty hair that they're the fancy one and are considered good for being humble, but not so if you're not European, which is an understatement.  With age of course they all align themselves to when they were younger but can't look now, which is sad.

You carry traits from each ethnicity.

Each ethnicity contributes to how you look.  It can trace back all the way to the beginning!  I know it comes in large doses, people from the 1800s.

Mixed People

They don't have just the less white side.  It's literally both and how much they like which culture particularly in which way.  They should have things they like as both.

Wars for the Typical

For the typical image people start wars.  It's not because of someone good-looking who's mixed race.  It's what you see mostly.

People change what they think...

...when it comes to being famous for acting or singing.  Things switch.